These beautiful flowers make me smile.
So... I had one of those days today. You know the ones I am talking about - not a day where anything goes wrong necessarily, but a day when insecurities strike! A day when you think "what in the world am I doing here?". I was reading one of my favorite blogs the other day and the writer mentioned that she struggles with insecurities. My first thought was, "well I can relate to that!". I like to think that most of the time I have it all together (or at least appear to), but there are times when doubts and insecurities just blindside me. I think we have all struggled with this at one time or another. The "I'm not smart enough, not pretty enough, I'm not the perfect size, I'm not good enough at... you name it - insert your own insecurity here - thoughts". The list goes on. I used to laugh and joke, in fact I still do at times, that I did not have any talent to speak of - I don't sing or dance, nor can I draw, BUT I could teach children! That was my God given talent! From an early age I realized that I was really good with children. That turned into my career and for that I am so thankful. This post is not about teaching though. It is about believing in yourself and trying to overcome insecurities. For example, right now I am comparing myself to other bloggers. I look at them and think "I will probably never have thousands of followers or be able to do the projects they do (there is that talent thing again!).
With regard to today, I love my job and it is very rewarding; however, it is very overwhelming at times. Some days I think, "ok that is it - I need to make a change." Then I force myself to remember one of my favorite verses from the Bible, Philippians 4:8, which states: Finally, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praise worthy, think on these things.
Elizabeth George, a wonderful Christian writer, speaks at length on this verse in one of her books. She cautions us to not think on things that may or may not be true, things that are "gossipy" or hurtful, or worrying about things that may or may not happen, etc. Instead we should focus on things we KNOW to be true. God loves us and wants His best for us always. He is always there - no matter what, we can turn to Him. He loves us just the way we are! He hears our every prayer! What a comfort this is on days when the world seems to be more than we can handle and I guess that is the key. WE can't can't handle anything, but when we think on the things are TRUE, we will remember that with God, we can handle everything, despite our shortcomings.
For today, I will remember these things!
Just because it makes me happy!