You see, this weekend I am getting ready for a colonoscopy on Monday. I should tell you now that this is not a new thing for me. I have had Crohn's Disease for 20 + years so, trust me, I know the drill! I still hate it though! Most people say they dread the prep and not the test, but I don't like either part!! I used to handle it better before my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. (This is where I am getting really honest.) My mom battled cancer for 14 months before she passed away. Since that time, I have had a mini meltdown just before my colonoscopies. My doctor is a saint though. I usually hold it together until he walks in the room (by this time I have the IV etc.), but for some reason when I see him I start to cry. He has been my GI doctor for almost 15 years. He is so wonderful - he reassures me and calms me down. Nonetheless, I dread Monday. I know in my heart I will be fine. I have been on a special chemo drug for the past 2 and 1/2 years that is keeping my Crohn's under control for the most part. I just get REALLY anxious though. Please pray for peace and the calmness of knowing that God is in control.
On a slightly funner note though, why does it seems like when you can't eat a certain thing (or basically anything but clear broth) for two days ALL you want to do is eat! Even commercials that are for restaurants that I don't particularly care for look delicious!!! I finally left the house just to get out for a while and not think about food. Seth and I ran to Hobby Lobby and I got some darling chargers that will make their way into a Fourth of July tablescape soon. We then went to Target and the cute little salad plates that I have been watching for months were half price. I snatched them right up!!! When I feel better I am going to "play" with my new treasures. My last purchase was a new mat for a sketch of my husband when he was a little boy that we found when we were clearing out his mom's house. It is so cute! I need to spray paint the frame and switch out the mat and it will be good as new.
Now I am home and it is almost time for me to drink phase one of my "prep". Phase two is tomorrow night. Please let Monday afternoon be here soon!
I hope you are all having a super weekend! Thanks for letting me