Saturday, June 11, 2011

Keeping it Real

I've heard a lot of people mention "keeping it real" on their blogs recently.  People have shown their junk rooms or spots of their house that are not perfect.  Others have talked about tough times they are going through at the moment.  I will just tell you that I wish I was on some beautiful beach right now - basically anywhere would be super!

You see, this weekend I am getting ready for a colonoscopy on Monday.  I should tell you now that this is not a new thing for me.  I have had Crohn's Disease for 20 + years so, trust me, I know the drill!  I still hate it though! Most people say they dread the prep and not the test, but I don't like either part!!  I used to handle it better before my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer.  (This is where I am getting really honest.)   My mom battled cancer for 14 months before she passed away.  Since that time, I have had a mini meltdown just before my colonoscopies.  My doctor is a saint though.  I usually hold it together until he walks in the room (by this time I have the IV etc.), but for some reason when I see him I start to cry.  He has been my GI doctor for almost 15 years.  He is so wonderful - he reassures me and calms me down.  Nonetheless, I dread Monday.  I know in my heart I will be fine.  I have been on a special chemo drug for the past 2 and 1/2 years that is keeping my Crohn's under control for the most part.  I just get REALLY anxious though.  Please pray for peace and the calmness of knowing that God is in control.

On a slightly funner note though, why does it seems like when you can't eat a certain thing (or basically anything but clear broth) for two days ALL you want to do is eat!  Even commercials that are for restaurants that I don't particularly care for look delicious!!!  I finally left the house just to get out for a while and not think about food.  Seth and I ran to Hobby Lobby and I got some darling chargers that will make their way into a Fourth of July tablescape soon.  We then went to Target and the cute little salad plates that I have been watching for months were half price.  I snatched them right up!!!  When I feel better I am going to "play" with my new treasures.  My last purchase was a new mat for a sketch of my husband when he was a little boy that we found when we were clearing out his mom's house.  It is so cute!  I need to spray paint the frame and switch out the mat and it will be good as new.

Now I am home and it is almost time for me to drink phase one of my "prep".  Phase two is tomorrow night.  Please let Monday afternoon be here soon! 

I hope you are all having a super weekend!  Thanks for letting me whine share! :-)


  1. Bless your heart. I pray for peace for you now and good results on Monday,

  2. Sometimes it's good to be reminded that others go through things they dread, too! :)
    Praying for a good report.

  3. oh you poor dear,, thats rough goin"s for sure.I will have you in my prayers,, I't must be a more complicated test that what we have done,, you only drink the stuff one night for it here.I'm so sorry about the loss of your mum,, I can certainly see yourconcern,, you have all your blogging friends to support you and send healing energy and positive thoughts,,sleep well,

  4. We haven't had an update on your blog in a long time. Hope you are doing OK. I really enjoy your blog!


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